Reflections

Sorry I have not posted until now on my blog.  Sometimes life can intervene and you have to set your prorities. My father is in critical condition at a local VA hospital.  Even the doctors there are amazed he has lasted this long with all of his chronic illnesses which include:  Congestive Heart Failure, COPD, Diabities, being septic, having dementia and other infections.  My family and I are meeting with his doctors today to determine what to do:  Hospice or a nursing home because he is at the point now where it is becoming impossible for mom to care for him.

He was discharged from Deaconnes Hospital in Evansville, IN with all these issues and was told they could do nothing more for him. I wonder if it is because he only had Medicare???? I personally thought health care providersare taught to “do no harm” with their patients. Maybe this ethical code simply applies to individuals who have the “good” insurance.

So, I made the decision to drive my parents to Chicago which is an 8 hour drive so that they can be near family. There are issues going on in their lives that made it imperative we leave Indiana.  And because of the stress I am now sick along with my mother.  Sometimes I wonder how much God makes us go through, testing our faith because I am quite angry with Him right now but know I will eventually have to come around….but at least let me be angry for now.

Reasons to stay in shape

Reason 1 is that I need to maintain a healthy lifestyle since diabetes and heart disease runs on both sides of my family tree.

Reason 2 is that it will make me feel better about myself. Instead of lamenting how I gained 7 pounds in one week…don’t ask….I need to do something about it and not gripe.

Reason 3 is more for motivation since the possibility of returning to the Guard means having to stay in shape so that a.) I can pass their physical fitness test and b.) I remain at a healthy weight because I can get flagged or kicked out of the service for being portly.

Keeping myself in shape has always been a tedious process because frankly I hate exercising.

It’s worse than anything I can come up with.

But I know I have to.  Sigh…..no choice…..I hate it when people complain about their weight yet keep right on with their poor eating and exercise habits.

No one is making you this way but yourself.

And I need to follow my own advice!!!!!!!!

WHY have gas prices risen?

Considering the state of the economy and how many people have lost their jobs….getting ready to lose their jobs.

Where do these oil companies get the balls to raise their costs? 

Isn’t the billion$ of dollar$ in profit they have already made, are making enough?

People are struggling to scrimp and save to meet their basic needs.

It isn’t like the United States is a compact nation (except on the East Coast) where people are practically living on top of one another.

In the Midwest our transit system is not as elaborate as say New York. The closest to it is Chicago but the rest of Illinois is one big rural area.

Definitely this country is teetering on the brink of insanity!

People change

One of the hardest things to deal with is when you outgrow someone.  They are still in the same mindset as they were back in high school.  You would think after years of livin’ they would at least be more receptive to how you work…your thoughts….the way you look at the world.  People are suppose to evolve when they gain insight through the years.

Apparently sometimes there are those who don’t and are stuck in the past.

Overtime and insomia

I have been up since 2am..don’t ask me why. Simply woke up and could not get back to sleep. Which irked the hell out of me. Got up and surfed on the computer with Simba in a coma lying next to me. 

Damn cat……….

So, here I am on overtime…been up now (looking at the computer clock) going on 13 hours and am tired yet not tired..like an in-between freakish state of fatigue.

Honestly, how do some people do it in the corporate world. Five hour sleep sessions and working 16 hours a day.

No wonder Americans are highly stressed.

Not this lady!

GOD, I want my blanket, couch, movie and Simba……doesn’t matter in what order. I need to zone out. Give me the History Channel, something.

Something!

Not the time for Wall Street Bonuses

….uhmmmm……you think?

Wall Street gave itself over $18 billion in bonuses for 2008.

Now, I never begrudge people bonuses we work hard for it.

But when does it reach to the point of ridiculous regarding what some individuals get for their job?

Especially now when the economy is reeling from the housing market along with other issues plaguing my society today.

$18 billion?

Where did they get the balls?  And these are the very same indivduals whose asses we are bailing out with taxpayer’s money. WTF?:

President Obama: “When I saw an article today indicating that Wall Street bankers had given themselves $20 billion worth of bonuses, the same amount of bonuses they gave themselves in 2004, at a time when most of these institutions were teetering on collapse and they are asking for taxpayers to help sustain them and when taxpayers find themselves in the difficult position that if they don’t provide help that the entire system could come down on top of our heads, that is the height of irresponsibility.

‘No Bias, No Bull’

“It is shameful. We’re going to be having conversations as this process moves forward directly with these folks on Wall Street to underscore that they have to start acting in a more responsible fashion if we are to together get this economy rolling again.

“There will be time for them to make profits and there will be time for them to get bonuses. Now is not that time.”

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It’s OUR money bailing these individuals out and when the government told the banks HOW our money was to be spent over 20 said:  “No thank you.”

I don’t know about some of you but I sure as hell don’t want my hard earned dollars paying on someone’s salary.

Instead, let the federal government take on some of these housing loans and those individuals who can pay on a 5% interest rate (which would go to the government) let them keep their homes.

I am glad my new President was pissed. He and every single American out there suffering from this economic spiral deserves to be!

Is it Spring yet?

Wonder how many times I can say it before warmer weather gets here.

Holy Crap!

Thankfully my agency has a liberal leave policy when storms hit like what we are about to experience.  (But the Center should be closed due to the ice storm coming).  If ARPERCEN didn’t come in why should we?  I mean, come on…it’s the Army and they are next door!

Feel bad for my parents in Indiana–they are going to be dumped on. Dad has an appt. today at the VA Clinic.

Yeah, ready to go home!

Hair Dilemma

Debating on whether or not to keep things  straight or curly.  I know it isn’t the end of the world but I have a whole mess of hair to contend with.  Family says straight….I think for right now will keep it straight and when the lazy bug hits me keep it in its naturally curly state.

What to do..what to do!

Boredom

thoughts...

It’s the killer of dreams or the catharsis of generating new ones.

It can break a person down

Or build them up

Boredom is the lack of imagination

Or the taxing of one’s fortitude.

Seeing life as tedious

Or taking it head-on as a challenge.

The scrounge of society…over-indulgence at its “finest”

It’s how you view the world, how the world sees you..what you do with it.

Boredom can be a tool…or the last nail on the coffin.

Ready for Spring!!!!!!!!

Ready to have some fun!

I really am counting down the days until March 20th.  Impatient to the nth degree, want to be outside, go to the zoo, park, biking, running you name it! I think my Latina blood is rebelling!

Antsy like this little guy to grab life by the horns!