an analyst at heart

Every since a child I was quietly analyzing my world…people’s actions, their words, sights, sounds, smells….wondering why I was put on this planet. Since the age of I would say 5 (yes 5) I had such an active taste for this world.

I don’t know why…can’t pinpoint exactly what spurred my childlike curiosity.  I simply knew I had to soak in everything I could because who knew if such an event would come my way again.  And as I analyzed people’s actions/reactions around me, made me wonder why certain people acted the way they did…with cruelty (growing up mix in a town where people did not necessarily like it) was difficult. But…things like that only made me stronger.

In the military I wondered about my place within it…where I would be going…if I would survive basic training or being sent off to Korea.  And when I did I was astounded at myself.  🙂 A shy gal from Indiana did it!

And as I grow older, looking back at being a daughter, sister, mother, soldier I hope I did a good job…did the best I could because it’s important to make the most of our lives…to give it 200% and simply…enjoy the journey….

Exercise! Exercise!!

One thing I hate about exercise is the starting point. Once you “fall off the wagon” it is hard to get back on. I was diligent with working out and losing 50 pounds and trust me, this little lady does NOT want to gain any of that back!

My agency does have a free gym (weights, treadmills, weight machines you name it) but it’s small…But here we go now…it’s free. Just need to get back on…would be better to share it with someone who has the same intensity, passion and desire for health and beauty as I do. 🙂

He could be my “divine” inspiration………..

“The” Y and “The” Military

A friend of mine informed me that the YMCA or now known as The “Y” offers membership opportunities to soldiers and their families:

Who is eligible for membership?

Title 10 personnel are eligible for a Y membership, including:

  • Family members of deployed National Guard and Reservists
  • Active Duty Independent Duty personnel and their families
  • Relocated spouse/dependent children of deployed Active Duty personnel
  • Wounded service members assigned to a Community Based Warrior in Transition Unit (CBWTU)

What do I need to do?

  1. Contact Military OneSource at or 800-342-9647 to confirm your eligibility and receive an eligibility form.
  2. Find a participating Y in your area using the search tool below.
  3. Fill out and bring your eligibility form, Military ID and any other required documentation (usually, your Deployment Orders or Military Service Headquarters approval letter) to a participating YMCA for verification. Please do not leave copies of these documents at the YMCA.

Find a Y Participating in the Military Outreach Initiative:


If you had the absolute power to change a certain time of your life, yourself—perhaps a quirk in your personality or a “flaw” in your looks would you analyze why…or simply do it?

What is it about us we are always trying to change great pieces of ourselves?  Why are we never completely satisfied with our self-assessed “crudeness”.  Compelled to erase past decisions/actions/feelings….It’s sad really.

God made us into His likeness and we are forever trying to find ways to change it.

The passion of love…and it’s lust

“I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.”
— Gabriel García Márquez (One Hundred Years of Solitude)

There’s an erotic yet innocent intensity when it comes to love and the devotion which follows.  That person can consume your very thoughts….bring a smile about the lips, a “twinkle” in the eye…your heart beats faster when you simply think about the person…

However there is also the emotional intimacy which carries no boundaries…envelopes you with a whirlwind of senses….you don’t know where you begin and they eventually end. So you take what comes and enjoy it while it lasts….because the feelings it invokes….the feelings…….they become a part of your life memories….

Shallow’s Edge

Staring at my reflection….

Wondering at what’s real…

This world….seems to me—has become a reflection.    

Humanity…are we walking on the edge?

And if we fall over?

Who will catch us?

Where has our consciousness gone?

Are we collectively screaming for change?

Or have we all become deaf to the doors of perception?

Meant to be tamed?

For those of us who did not take the marriage route (2.5 children, house in the suburbs and the soccer van) are we less valuable to society than the married types…those of us who chose a different albeit at times lonely path, is it really all that lonely? (or perhaps it’s all about perspective……yeah baby)

Perhaps we simply never met the right person who was brave enough to compliment our vagabond souls.

I always strongly felt that if you have nagging doubts about a relationship (when there are far more negatives outweighing the good stuff)…it’s your gut telling you “something ain’t right girlfriend.”

Do we want to be rescued?  Is there a nagging evolutionary need for women to developed a learned-helplessness?

Did all those movies of damsels in distress ruin it for the rest of us independent types? Or have our expectations for the perfect Mr. or Mrs. Right” ruined it for everyone else? (hmmm)

Or maybe…simply…we weren’t meant to be tamed.

Stamina to be fit

Well, talked to a technician on my team, trying to find an exercise machine I could use for full body workout (while watching the tele)…….yes.  Simply tired of not reaching the goals I have envisioned for myself.  And with being in the military it’s a nice motivation to keep me at a level of physical fitness which will also keep me healthy, fit and energetic.

Do you have limited workout space but plenty of motivation? Turn to the Stamina Body Trac Glider rowing machine, which offers a compact footprint of only 23.5 inches wide by 46 inches long, but offers the same terrific workout performance as machines twice its size. The Body Trac Glider is outfitted with a tough steel frame and an aluminum center beam that’s designed to withstand years of use. More significantly, the machine’s ball-bearing roller system and adjustable cylinder resistance arms mimic the smooth motion of rowing on the water. And because rowing is widely recognized as one of the best all-around activities for cardiovascular fitness and strength, the Body Trac Glider makes an ideal workout accessory for anyone who wants to get in tip-top shape.

The Body Trac Glider folds up for easy storage in a closet.

Rowing provides an efficient, effective, low-impact workout that utilizes all the major muscle groups, including the back, legs, arms, abdominals and buttocks. It is also one of the best exercises for building a strong back, as well as one of the most effective low-impact aerobic exercises for increasing your metabolism. As a result, you can efficiently burn calories and fat without impacting your joints. In addition, the rower includes a multifunction fitness monitor that tracks your workout time, stroke count, and calories burned during your workout, along with the total strokes you’ve accumulated since owing the machine. The monitor displays each data point for six seconds before rotating to the next.